Am i being selfish?

Sometimes when your significant other is being so busy, you can't help yourself to feel left out or isolated from his life.

But then, in order to be an understanding partner, you just let it go and maybe he'll be ok soon.

But when he had the time to play sports with his friends in the evening and still talked to you only for morning and goodnight greetings since he was really tired to the point that he was already half-asleep during the middle of conversation with you, how does that make you feel?

Am I being selfish?
Do I ought to get upset or angry?

Tell me about it because when he asked me what's wrong with me, I don't know what to say because somehow it looks like my fault for not being understanding but I'm the one with the pain.

Another emo post. Bravo.

Keeping Up

It's been almost 4 months since the last time I met him (It was just a 1 day date in Indonesia. Brief but very meaningful, I really appreciate the long distance he took to travel in the train, thank you Syazwan :) )

Bile time2 nak exam ni la suddenly we tend to get explosions of complicated, mix blends of emotions. Plus, summer is here too and the effects are terrifying sampai kadang2 nak gaduh ngan roommate pon ade. All I can do right now is just keep on praying and praying to have all the strength to keep going.

I miss my family so much...
I miss him so much...
I miss my country so much...
I miss being me so much too...

Final exam in 54days...
Home in 2months time...
Him in 2 months 1 week time...

You can do it Suraya!!! ;D

<3 <3 <3

hihi :P rindu kt pipi cekodok ni!

The Return

Finally, I've returned from such a long blog-hibernation.

Now I'm back!

I guess i have no more avid readers here *cleaning up the spider webs*

But that's not the point. I will still continue my writing as much as I can, though, not as often as previously because life has been very different, to a point, that I feel like I am no more a teenager or a person I used to be (carefree, stay-free, my biggest problem back then would be, what would be dinner of the day).

Instead, I feel like an adult, especially when it comes to bill payments i.e. house rent, internet bill, electricity bill, maintenance fee, tata sky bill, blablabla...omg, there are so many bills! And I deal and negotiate with people here almost everyday which requires a lot of patience, energy and strategy. 

So, welcome to adulthood!! (my 21st birthday are coming in July, ehem ehem)

Indian Wedding

My Apartment!

At the rooftop of my Apartment!

Current Pic of Myself. (Pls ignore the pimples. Arrrghhh!)

OK, here we go!

Alright, alright, finally, i found the inspiration and spirit to blog. Haha.

Things have been awesome after the first sessional exam. I've been doing a lot of shopping lately for my family (Yes, i'm coming home in less than a month! yeehaa!)

Though, the bad part is, I'm really really excited to go home to the point that I've become reckless and lazy about my studies here. So, please wake up Suraya! Make sure all of your previous effort, all those stay-ups, zombie eyes, acned face worth it. Don't just let it go down the drain!!

Thanks to Joanna, who called me while I was in the auto yesterday, stuck in the, as always, crazy, hectic traffic of India. She reminded me that I still have 1 more month before I can go home so I better get over that post-exam jolliness. Lol.

Anyway, I better start being serious again about my studies, Dr.Harsha wants to ask anatomy viva tomorrow. Huhu..

However, I do like Dr.Harsha or normally I just call him sir. He makes me think out of the box, like dare to go beyond. His method of teaching is based on 'why' questions. Which is exactly caught my interest. Especially when it comes to anatomy, a lot of things that you must memorize. But I'm the kind of person who cannot simply memorize by not knowing what is it exactly and why it is named in such a way. So, Dr.Harsha could really answer my wonders, doubts and curiosity without any hesitation. I really salute him. A very young doctor yet very passionate of what he does and plus, never get tired of explaining the same thing again and again till you understand.

He's indeed, an excellent teacher.

:)

Nway, I wanted to post some pics and write about my eid adha (in which I got to eat beef after three months!) yet I have to go for usrah now! till then, ciao!

Exam Stress

I know I haven't updated my blog since.......AGES AGO!

Well, life as a student in India is really hectic to the point that I somehow, am having an internal identity crisis (whether I'm still human or a robot) and also, being homesick, especially during this exam period.

Next week, I'll be having 4 practicals in a row. Last week was a horrible week of theory papers (Am glad, done and over with it!).

And on Thursday, weehooo! freedom! Though still haven't decided to reward myself a body massage or a retail therapy....huehehuhe.

I'll update more stories later, soon as I've finished my sessional exam. Please pray for me so that I could at least pass all the papers :s

And by the way, Syazwan is still stranded in Solo, Indonesia due to Gunung Merapi eruption in Yogyakarta. He's waiting for the third flight from TUDM to come for the rescue. I hope he will reach Malaysia safe and sound tonight. I know he's been through a lot today and I hope, with that, will make him a stronger person. Amin.. :)

After 3 Weeks In India

Of course it is such a lie if I said my journey in this exotic land went out smoothly and well.

There were times I felt horrible, terrible, depressed, homesick as I continued facing my daily life here. But there were sweet moments as well :).

Parts in India in which I find it depressing would be;

1) The environment.

It’s dusty, dirty, red soil everywhere and if it’s hot, I tell you, it’s really really hot here. Once you’re out under the sun without umbrella, you can definitely feel your skin burning in a fraction of a second. And when it’s about to rain, there are no signs whatsoever to indicate rain is coming, it will just pour down on you suddenly. So, a good Indian umbrella is like a gun here. You carry it everywhere, anywhere you go.

However, as old, dirty, nasty the buildings may look from the outside here, actually, you’ll be amazed on what you’ll see on the inside. It’s pretty and posh actually. Though, there are old, dirty, nasty buildings that memang look like that either on the outside or inside =.=”.

2) Transportation

Here, there’s no such thing like Proton Saga taxi or Waja taxi and no need to mention Perdana taxi la. Here the taxi is called Auto. Auto is actually a motorcycle, modified into a small tiny carriage with a seat at the back that can fit 3 people maximum. No doors, only a hood to cover the passengers and the driver from the hot sun, rain and dust.

So just imagine if I take an Auto from my place to city which is around half an hour journey. The road is badly broken, cracked and unstable. Traffic is a mess. Busses and lorries speeding up and cutting  lines as though they are small cars like Kancil or Kelisa. And it is dusty, smelly and you’re scared shitless because you’re in between two busses in one lane.

My first auto ride was a nightmare. Serious. No kidding. Though, each time I think about it again it  makes me laugh. Lol.

Bus here is another thing as well. When I’m in a bus, I feel like in a butcher house where all the meats being hanging next to one another. Yes, it is true. It’s very crowded in the bus. Their principle is, as long people can fit into the bus then voila! Those who are unable to sit, have to stand up and must have a great hand grip and body balance because the drivers here drive like mad people. If they can’t overtake cars on the road, they will go to such extend, drive out of the lane, on the red soil, in order to cut the line. Amazing!

Warning: Never take buses when it’s raining. The aroma inside the bus will make you want to puke. Serious, no kidding.

In the auto

3) Class Management

So crazy! from 8 a.m. till 1 p.m. with an hour break until 2 p.m. and continue to 4 p.m.!! waahhh!!

if those classes are within one building is ok but here at my place, the practical classes are so far!!! and it’s a hilly area some more  and during break time I have to rush to my hostel (which is quite far also) in order to get my Zuhur prayer done. Crazy.

If you come here, you will never have the problem of gaining weight. You will always do cardiovascular training here. Hahahaha.

Though, I’m really thankful that at least on Saturday my class is only until 10.30 am :D.

Parts in India in which I find it heaven;

1) Shopping!!!

Yes! Shopping here is awesome. Things are cheap here. Even though no Forever 21, topshop, MNG or Zara, but I tell you, you can get the same stuff and quality for the price of a pea here in India!!

Mangalore is developing very fast. Now there is City Centre, 7 floors shopping mall which is very awesome. I like to shop at Lifestyle as the clothes there are nice and boho chic :).

 

These two kurthis only cost around rm20-23 :). And I like the leggings here. They come in all sorts of colours to match with kurthis.

This boho top cost around rm30 plus. It’s of a great cotton quality and neat sewing work. Not like those you buy at Sg.Wang for rm25 each.

Even here they sell maxi skirts of many varieties and colours and patterns which I find it very awesome! Levi’s jeans are cheap here. If sale, you buy one, free one :D. Even if it’s not sale, it’s roughly around rm93 only :).

2) Food

Food here is marvellous!! Once you eat the authentic Indian food here, you will never want to go to Mamak again, except maybe, for teh tarik because here don’t have teh tarik. Huhu.

Moreover, food here is cheap! Even when you eat at the hotel, the total cost for everything from drink, main course to dessert, it is roughly just going to be cheapest rm20 and hardly will go more than rm30! Plus, the portion is very big!

Blueberry cheesecake only for 50rps or rm3.70!

Awesome chicken shavarma only for 30rps! that’s like rm2 something.

Lamb chili burger

Shirley temple! :)

 

At Aroma Restaurant, Deepa Hotel

Lays potato chips for rs20! (rm1.50)

A very tasty milk, rs14!!

Omelette yang sangat sedap.

To be continued…

Puasa

Dengan rasmi, puasa di India bermula pada hari Khamis, bukan Rabu ye.

Maka, dengan ini,


RAYA LAMBAT 1 HARI DARI MALAYSIA!!!!




SEDIHNYE!!!!!